kenapa sejak2 ini beliau kelihatan tidak gembira..??
terlihat beliau dari belakang..
lama ku perhatikan duduk nya..
beliau kelihatan sedih..
walau tidak kulihat dan tatap wajah nya..
beliau seolah olah menyembunyikan segala lara nya..
siapakah yang beliau ada untuk bercerita..??
bukan aku..pastinya..
apakah yang menggangu mu..??
ingin saja ku tanya kan begitu..
tapi dimana ingin kucari kekuatan itu...
hati ku turut bersedih juga..
butir2 mutiara dari mata ku ingin saja meluruh..
tapi ku tahan..
tidak mahu ku tunjuk simpati ku kepada nya..??
apakah yang menghimpit diri nya..??
pernah beliau kabar kan kepada ku..
apa lagi yang beliau perlu jika semua usaha nya dan impian nya sudah kelihatan..??
tapi mengapa beliau tetap disisih juga..
beliau sedar bahawa dia sudah menginjak senja..
tapi bilakah saat nya beliau akan mengecap bahagia..
yang hakiki..??
doa ku tidak putus untuk beliau yang ku cinta..
beliau tiada ganti nya..


p/s: mengapa air mata ni nak menitis juga..???

thank you for letting me alive

she is the greatest woman in my world
i stayed in her womb for almost a year
carried me without hesitation
protect me with all she had
without complaining

you shared your everything with me
your food, your drinks
your heartbeat
even your happiness or your sadness
you talked to me every single day
you told bedtime stories to me
even you knew that i'm not listening to any of it
but why can't i remember all that?
i knew that Allah know better.

but when i grow up
i turn out to be like what i wanna be
ignoring all your concern to me
you gave me your love, i gave you tears
you gave me your smile, i gave you pain
you gave me your hand, i gave you my back
you gave me your advice, i walked away
you gave me your everything, but i give u nothing

you have the right to not to let me alive
but without thinking twice, you let me breath in you
if only i knew i would turn out this way
i would tell you, i would advice you
please don't let me see the world
because i'm gonna hurt you badly
but i know that i should be thankful
that you don't.

p/s: thank you mak for raised me up..i know how hard you take care of me..

do you know how pathetic you are..??

i've never met a guy like you
you couldn't stand working under me
you know that i did a great job
but you still struggling search my flaws.

you act like you're so cool
you tried to show me like you knows everything
you makes other girls impressed with you
but form the beginning, you totally never impressed me
is that why you mad at me..?
because you couldn't catch my eyes..??

you said everything you want even you have no right at all
you yelled on my face like i already caused a disaster
you scolded me like you're the one who worked hard for the occasion
but don't you realize??
you don't even sweat..??

you said you knows me so well
you even said you knows what inside my awesome brain
but that really shows you know nothing
if i were you, i would be ashamed
ain't it a shamed..??
dont' you feel that way??
after what you have done to me?

but baby, what goes around comes around
don't you know that?
even God help me too
you face much more terrible situation
than what you've done to me..??
world seems like ain't a beautiful place for you

i don't have to run my mouth about you
people know how pathetic and useless you are
ain't that too clear for us to see?

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