there's a person who said she sound stupid when she speaks malay
but for me,
it sounds stupid when i wrote in malay
bukan berlagak
sebab for me
when i wrote in english
it sound much better
sbb in english i wrote it directly
to what i truly wanna said
tapi kalo in malay
mula la nak berbunga bunga dan berjiwang2..
x suka
meremang bulu roma nak baca ridz oi..
hadoi
kesimpulan nye..
i write better in english rather than malay
but i'm not so good in english
hell what
hentam je..

~theend~

Dear Blog..
baru sebentar tadi
aku tau yang
roomate aku yang bernama She tu
anak M.jamil
lawak nye
bila dah habis sem and dah x duk sekali
baru aku tau
duduk sebilik for almost 5 months or 4..
now only i know
she is so mysterious
sebab dia pendiam sangat
maybe dengan strangers mcm aku
who knows..

Abah,
pada aku
adalah satu satunya
ciptaan Allah
yang paling memahami diri aku
even aku rapat dengan mak
tapi abah lebih paham aku
dan even aku sendiri
x paham dengan diri aku sendiri

Abah,
orang yang paling sabar yang pernah aku jumpa
walau keadaan menekan hidupnya
sesusah mana sekalipun
Abah x pernah merungut
aku x pernah sekali dengar abah merungut
abah paling sabar dengan sikap aku
abah paling sabar cari kast untuk aku
tunggu aku try kasut
sampai kau dah letih dan bosan
tapi abah x pernah putus asa
sampai raya tahun lepas
abah juga yang berjaya jumpa kasut raya aku yang versi gadis
berkat kesabaran abah
Allah tolong abah cari kasut raya aku

saya sayang Abah saya...
saya sayang Allah sebab bagi abah kat saya..

aku harap Allah boleh bagi masa lagi lama untuk aku bersama abah
aku nak abah merasa menimang cucu dari aku

ya Allah, Engkau panjangkanlah umur abah dan mak ku..

amin.....

hari ni
aku wat perangai mcm bangang
bongok la aku nih
skunk aku tatau nak salahkan sapa
kenapa ntah aku ley bad mood lak pagi2 tadi
dah la nak g jalan2..
spoil mood la..
sampai tambun ok dah mood tuh..
bila abg lifeguard tu x bg aku nek mainan mende ntah namanaye tu
sbb seluar aku,
aku teros moody balik
mangsanya mak abah la..
aku btol2 xde mood tadi
seriously
and abah tried to pujuk aku
aku buat perangai bangang
kuang ajar derhaka plak ngn mak abah
setan la aku ni
kalo boleh putar balik masa
aku x nak buat mcm tadi....
ya Allah
ampunkan aku...
ampunkan aku..
ampunkan aku
ampunkan aku
ampunkan aku
ampunkan aku
ampunkan aku....

sebab orang lain tak faham
aku hanya nak bg tahu kewujudan aku..
untuk tinggalkan kesan dalam hati orang lain
bahawa aku wujud
just incase maybe one day
aku dah x de lagi
at least mereka boleh ingat aku
x salah kan...

i am this "kind" of girl ya know..
i really wanted to post this
just incase
one day i might forgotten who i was before
what i know is
i am this kind of girl
who is
cry baby
i love sun rise and set..who wouldn't right??
who really loves sawah padi in arau
the place where i spent my 2 and a half year there
a place where i learnt about life
being loved and hated
and tried to fall in love which no one would fall for me
who love to seat near the window just to stare the hills,trees, and sky
i really love paddy fields
i really fall in love to how green the sawah was
actually i miss sawah in arau
i still remember that

i was really sad when the trees near my room in arau being cut down

i was really sad

seriously i was

but people would laugh at me when i told them about it

did i look that weird??

even people would see me as a girl
who would never doing those things
but i was.and still am
people doesn't see things the way i see it
i love my room when i was stay in shah alam
from the room, i could gaze the sky during senja
and i really fall in love with all the lamp post yang look like pelita
seriously look like pelita from my room
it such a beautiful scenery which i an the lucky one
who Allah gives the chance to see all those heart-warming scenery
i really loves shah alam when it rains
people have no idea how beautiful it is

next is..
i am this kind of girl
who have my own dream
which i hope i could write my own songs one day
could perform and sing my own song and play guitar awesome-ly
in front of thousands crowd
having millions fans
who would scream my name
who would have my own tour
travelling all around the world touring
it just like what taylor swift did..
because i like her songs.
i may not look like a girl who would love taylor's songs
but i knew all her songs.well.
enough say.
i love writing
anything
that relates to what i feel at that moment
bcz i couldnt paint or tell story well.
i just write

ridz
is the girl
who are ain't like normal girl
she is not so into
shopping,windows or doors
beautiful cloth an dress for girls are not in her list
dont mention shoes or heels
totally not her
what makes her weird is
she likes book shops

yeah,
i really loves bookshops or stationary shops
i really love how the book shop could make me wanna scream
masa masuk MPH,
i really wanna jump kegirangan
i don't know why
i was and am
so happy to be in there
i could just spend my whole day there
ridz..ridz..
before eid last year(2011)
mak and abah
took us to jusco to buy baju raya
but me..??
where did i go??
yeah MPH i was..

people always said that i'm weird
but for me
i think i'm different
in my own way
there's a good and bad part of me
but just accept the way i am

~theend~

na tanya
ape dia???
aku ckp
rahsia aku dengan Tuhan
ape dia??
mana boleh bg tahu
rahsia
aku nak suami muka mcm LEE DONG WOOK
woohoo
mmg bukan rahsia lagi
tak mustahil
tadah tangan dan berdoa
rahsia..
shhh...

Tears is My Problem solver After all

having problem

i'll cry

even me myself appear to be strong

but i'm so fragile inside

if things doesn't workout for me

i'll cry

if i didn't do well in exam 

i'll cry

if i felt so stressed out

i'll cry

if i'm having a bit regret about something

i'll cry

homesick

i'll cry

miss my abah

i'll cry

miss my mama

i'll cry

favorite things broken

i'll cry

nightmare

i'll cry

extremely mad

i'll cry

yeah..yeah.. i am that kind of girl

easily cry

because i'm so fragile

i'm so not the girl who you thought i am..

~theend~